there are far worse things awaiting man... than death!!!

suffering impression of a fainted sacrifice feeling of a senseless expenditure through this needless existence my body is drained by fear the impossible suffering tired by bigotry and lies sad result of eternal greed surrounded by dead souls will we ever rise against? suffering how shall I bear it? what can I do what do I have to change? fundamental thoughts are requested do we have to endure the suffering? or is there a possibility to turn everything around and to change the way we exist I'm afraid the chance is long gone we surrender to the suffering impossible to escape we will never rise against the impossible suffering

trapped in my own head the mind confused will this ever find an end can I ever be me again or is this what I am and always was? thoughts of fear and darkness everyone´s observing me betrayers all around my being don´t they see our reality? incantation of damnation that surrounds my humanity no light no ease, just darkness irrepressible psychosis I now know the way out I will put an end on this will finish it - forever anticipation of upcoming redemption I will return in a new light admired and accepted you will finally see the truth my horrible act will speak for itself no light no hope, only internal rifts irrepressible psychosis

you have always rated me bad constantly measured me by inadequacies gave me the feeling of inferiority not treating me like your kind I was a wasted human being I felt useless and unloved but I`ve become stronger as a result still I have to fight against demons my spirit is infested with these creatures you planted them and kept them alive the power you robbed of me will return you have aroused the hate in me the time of retribution has come silently I watch your coming decay you become a joke without realizing it years of oppression are over now alone in your pain, you will serve your miserable being unloved and not needed by anyone around you that is the result of your behavior of your existence you die without leaving anything in the universe these prospects make my world better I will feed on your impending misfortune I am strengthening my knowledge of it and the world will see it it fills the void in me and the world will see it

mesmerized you stand there, you've opened your eyes wide, finally he is there, the new messiah, the new god, the redeemer you'll be fine, you can expect a perfect world all you have to do is submit to him and obey I protect you / but from whom or what I gift you / with confused thoughts I am your shepherd and guide you through the darkness / the darkness that I will bring about I stare hypnotized, in disbelief I observe the scene see you cheering, hear you scream, ecstatic you repeat the words he spits out he is the protector, he is the redeemer, he is the leader, he seems to be god Did we not hope for peace together, were we not all happy to finally enjoy life what has become of your ideals, why don´t you have your own dreams anymore? this god treats his flock like a shepherd like runaway sheep, you run after him, repeating his disgusting slogans you run straight into his arms, but before you reach his warming help the abyss comes and you fall down one after another, deep into the abyss of lies was not exactly this what we fought, didn´t we stand at this edge already but you don´t see all that, empty words only count for you, hollow phrases without value it seems I am surrounded by zombies, will-less desperate creatures god politician messiah's savior devil influencer, wake up before it's too late I'm sitting here and I can not understand it am I the only one who looks behind the scenes, who still thinks, who questions how can it be that people subject themselves again and again to become tools for a stranger's sake - I don´t get it All that prevails around me is hate, despair, sadness, the inability to even make decisions on your own, so you become the voluntary slaves of a so called elite but if they are so elitist, what makes them ruler, why do a few lead and many follow? it is a deadly and repulsive cycle that I want to escape I do not go into voluntary slavery

reason defeated by arrogance wrong confidence in the system crazy hope for nonexistent deities we fight ourselves and we win our existence is extinguished all life will be over the virus is finally defeated destruction by fire and hate the warnings were visible we all ignored and our greed further satisfied all resources have been exploited without regard to the worldwide consequences we extinguished ourselves the total annihilation was achieved through perfect ignorance and self-importance centuries of domination and power caused the extinction of all species the end of all existence existence extinguished

your unflappable conceptions moralistic views never open to criticism your overpowering ruse promises of sanctuary in eternal bliss with starry eyes and cash in hand pledge all to the master plan just face the truth or fund the farce at one with your god your sole intent your treasured place assured for a substantial rent global lunacy death threats for supposed blasphemy no room for free thought all non-believers pushed to the floor aggressive tyrants supposed saints for the cause judgment through force faith a fuel for pointless wars when all is done who shall benefit? Who is the one? not those who pass on but those dictators divine waving their deceitful wands

projections of a non-existent entity. happiness, love, satisfaction, success, friendship. community, peace, health, illness. faking imaginary facts without resonance and sustain. we are part of a universe of emptiness. just striving from the moment of our birth to escape death and to be or make this pathetic existence something meaningful. not noticing that everything is without substance. our agony with all the pain and deprivation remains unnoticed, but not without consequences. A fight that cannot be won. after years of imagined happiness we realize that all our efforts are wasted and were pointless. in the end, only the spiritually simple is happy. ignorance is a blessing, and unfounded self-awareness prevents you from self-doubt and insecurity. you believed in the existence of alternative reality and a higher truth. a kind of hope, important as a reason to continue. expecting to become higher being and get spiritual fulfillment. the origin of faith has an important point here. aeons of devotion, generations of compliant vicarious agents also experienced senselessness in the end. no higher power, no spiritual fulfillment. the final truth is probably that. we were nothing, we are nothing, we become nothing. existence is just a transition from dust to dust. accompanied by lifelong unperceived agony.

see the signs, those blind have forged their alliance expect decline, their weakness made them suffer through centuries, hate mongers adapt their weapons the mortal keys didn´t fall from heaven their mouths do not speak, no words, curse, spells indeed connected through secret nets, their web is full of traps driven ones are powerful, quiet, overlooked and hate is their fuel acting fast, no time to lose, one step ahead, overwriting truth unleash the sleeping beast, no return, no remain - contain once the gates are wide open, consciences are crushed and broken gates of hate gates of hate gates of hell the tools of trade were a gift, only seen by those with wishes what was once is burnt and dead, no remorse no regret there is no council for the hidden, for the darken, for the forbidden thy kingdom come is what they pray for, enduring blood and gore the beast can feast, circle of resources, all the prayers - foolish once the gates are wide open, consciences are crushed and broken gates of hate gates of hate gates of hell

Leiden...